Saturday, March 28, 2009

Rain Rain go away!

Well I'm quite the terrible blogger as of late. Oh well.... you know, even the keys on my laptop are about to die? I'm for real'z. Not a whole lot coming from this end at the moment. Except that Charlotte seems more like Seattle this week. I am so over the rain I could scream. Its getting quite old, quite fast. Oh well, God must know that we need the rain, and He does know better than me. I'm coming out of a pretty rough week at the moment. I mean, I'm pretty much all the way out... Just a little more pushing to go, and I'll be completely out. Don't know how to quite explain it, but I'm almost there. Work this week has been really decent. Especially relationally with everyone at work. I mean the money hasn't been bad, but the relationship end has been awesome. So many cool things happening, and I can see how God is working in my friends at work. And me tell you, it was all him, because I was sure not out there looking for anything this week. And I like that. 100% credit to the King. No room for pride. Thats the best, don't you think? :) I'm itching to leave town again. My mom and I are thinking about going to San fran, or to San Diego or something... Not sure, will update you all soon! Peace out.

"The kingdom is within everyone. Our job is to with our eyes behold a person long enough until we see the kingdom in them, and then tell them what we see."

Saturday, March 21, 2009

I am hormonally sitting in my bed trying to avoid people while doing my taxes and consuming cadbury mini eggs. I do this as a favor to everyone who encounters me on a daily or weekly basis, and pretty much to all of humanity. I figure I'd rather pout by myself than piss anyone off, as I don't think I could handle any sort of confrontation today. Plus, I have to save all of my potential drama for work tonight, right? Exactly. Well, my taxes are officially finished. Hopefully I didnt fuck them up and won't get repremanded by the IRS. I am going to take a shower now. Peace out.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Knowing in part

8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.
11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
I was reading about knowing in part prophetically. We know in part. We might have crazy promises that we have waited for in faith for 50 million years. But we still know in part and we prophesy in part. The moment that the revelation came to us may have been the most profound spiritual and emotional experience of our lives. And it doesn't discredit the revelation. His ways are not our ways. I'm mostly referring to the way events unfold in our lives. We may think that after we get a revelation from God that all these events are going to start unfolding in our lives in a certain manner. We know in part, and we prophesy in part. I know this sounds weird, but as I was reading the part about prophesies failing, and tongues ceasing, and knowledge vanishing, I was strangely comforted. I think maybe because it puts the power back on God, and less on man. It makes Him much bigger, much less easier to control. It provokes a place of uncertainty in me though, wondering why some people get healed, and some people don't. I can't say I get this. It has been baffling me the last several months on end straight. The only thing I do know is that I most certainly see through a glass darkly. I think that reference came from the way that mirrors actually looked back in the day. Men would get an inaccurate reflection when they looked at themselves in the mirror. It would give a skewed portrayal of what was really there. So then it goes to "but then I shall know just as I also am known." Wow... I wonder what that day will be like. To know like I also am known. This chapter makes God way bigger and way more uncertain, yet so grounded at the same time. He's not our genie in a bottle. We can't control Him. And just when He's moving in a certain way, and all of this amazing stuff is transpiring in our lives, Holy Spirit, who is like the wind--never knowing where its coming from or where its going--He may just take you from the rainforest to the desert in 2 seconds flat. But thank God that He is committed to the long haul, and not just the temporary. So here's a toast to not knowing. Not knowing some days what is going to happen.... such uncertainty. But we have our Father of lights who delights in his children, and in him there are no changes or shadows or turning. We can put our hope in that one thing today. That he is a good father, no matter what.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Cuban Sand Mermaid

So we are definitely having some fun down here. Probably enough fun for the whole neighborhood. We have made some friends at the hotel. (none of them is a woman) We have been hanging out with these guys since we got here (men is a better word) who I think are civilian contractors in connection with the military. They are on a job at the moment, so they aren't allowed to tell us exactly what they are doing, but they are really cool, and the guy/girl ratio is about 10 of them to one of us.. Which means we've had a lot of pina coladas and cuban cigars. And the website said that this was a bad hotel for singles! No way man. I think their entire company is staying here, and they are hysterically funny. One of them made me in to a pregnant sand mermaid holding a case of cuban cigars yesterday. We went out to dinner with 2 of them last night to a really nice italian place on the beach (which this morning I'm realizing was most definitely a date) which was slightly awkward once we were out and on the go. I thought a whole group of us was going out, but it was only us and the 2 guys we had gotten to know the best. They were sweet though, and pushed in our chairs and all that nice stuff, and were really good dates. I won't say how old they were, Lora. But I can ASSure you that there were no V-necks of skinny jeans in sight. They were as far away from metrosexual as one could venture. I think we may know the entire hotel by this point. I know they know us. We have enough one liners at this point in the game to make a full length movie. And we might.
OH. And there was one marriage proposal on the island tour. "Theresa, are you.... matrimonial? We do tomorrow. I Lovvvve you." thanks, but no thanks.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Gangstas Paradise

Well here I am, trapped in paradise again. (well, willingly submitting to it this time) I am here, it is pretty, I am happy to be here. It is very, very strange and deja vu like. I have 10 boyfriends, 6 of their names are Antonio. I got sick from a Dominican hot dog and was dry heaving at 6 in the morning. Embassy owns a private beach club about 1/2 a mile away that they shuttle us to whenever we want. I'm very happy about this. I met a man from Boston named Richard who wanted to buy me a drink. Once I realized he wanted me to drink in his condo, I was like, uhhh... no way never. There are lots of random animals and strange dogs running rampid. I think that may have been my dinner last night. The restaurant at Embassy is terrible. I will only eat the free breakfast. The coffee is GOOD. I was in so much shock that I drank 2 cups. Glory to God. Okay, I'm out. Miss you Lora!