I like blogging sometimes. Usually it takes me several weeks or months of going through a season of life to be able to articulate in words what has been going on inside of me. This season has been no exception. It has been a winter full of love, snow, beauty, confusion, indecision, and more indecision at that. I will spare you most of the details, but over the last 3 months we have had 3 venue changes, 2 family crises, one broken ankle in 3 pieces, 1 surgery, 3 bottles of Vicodin, (a few of them cured my migraine BUT made it hard to pee) and 2 separate ice storms that broke my mom's roof and blew up the converter box leaving us without power for 4 days. But at the end of the day we are getting married on May 1st and this is a beautiful thing!
It is a good thing to know that you are marrying someone that you just generally like to spend time with. Sometimes he gets my jokes and sometimes he doesn't... but he loves to laugh with me even when ridiculous things fly out of my mouth, and this is a REALLY good thing. Feeling understood even when they only partly understand is such a precious gift that has been bestowed on my life. When someone holds your heart, there is reassurance even when understanding is absent.
I can say that I have learned some very valuble lessons since our January 3rd engagement. The first one is: "let your yes be YES and let your no be NO, everything else comes from the evil one." I can testify with full assurance folks that this indeed is the truth. Wait on the Lord. Don't act when you are in a crunch and don't have peace. You will never make everyone happy! These are just a few more of the things I have learned by planning a wedding. Oh, and don't start on birth control when you are in the middle of planning a wedding. He will eventually tell you to stop taking it, that it would be better to be pregnant than to have a wife that is losing her mind. I actually don't really recommend taking birth control at all, at least not Sprintec. I was simultaneously nauseous, starving, didn't want to be hugged, wanted to cry all the time, was super depressed, and had the most strange dreams i've ever had in my life. (We watched 2 straight weeks of Confessions: Extreme Animal Hoarders during this time to soothe the hormonal insanity) I don't know if there is another type of birth control that won't bring havoc on my body, but at the end of the day kids are a blessing from the Lord and we both know that God doesn't believe in accidents. So as of right now we have no plans to put any more chemicals in to my body unless they come in a bottle and have the words "Maker's Mark" written on the front.
So anyways, I just flew home from Dallas after being there taking care of John for the last 3 weeks. Now I am in full wedding planning mode. We have a date, a venue, and a cake lady. Hallelujah. More to come very soon.