Thursday, August 20, 2009

Well, I just suck at updating this blog lately.. I am just SO DANG sorry! :) Welllll hellllo everyone... I am currently laying in bed recovering from bad Italian food from work last night. Yes, you guessed it. Food poisoning! There is nothing like broccoli and hummus the second time around. UGH! But things are good. Life is good. There is movement, hope, faith, love.. all the good and important and fulfilling stuff.
So I don't know that I've actually said this in my blog, but I AM MOVING! Wow, there it is. I am moving to Wilmington, NC October 1 (Lord willing) with no job, no house (yet) and complete peace that it is GOOD and right. That doesn't make the trust factor easy most days, but hey, trust is really a 4 letter word (RISK) So now all of us girls are waiting for the most gracious perfect timing Jesus to give us the right house, which I am completely confident that He will do. As for what everything will look like logistically, I have no flipping idea... so I'll keep you all posted.
Other than getting ready to move, I am trying to spend my time reading the word a lot, and then working out as much as possible.. more for the "holy crap i'm really going to do this" moments then for the physical benefits.. Those endorphins do wonders for the emotional state of being.
Well, I am more goofy and random than deep and insightful tonight... Should have caught me this morning.. deep as the ocean! Well anyway, goodnight everybody, talk to you soon!

Thursday, August 6, 2009


Well, all I have to say is that today was AWFUL! It was discouraging, disheartening.... you fill in the blank! I have no idea how I made it through the day without a cigarette. This is by no means my grand declaration of throwing in the towel, by the way. I just figured I'd rather not live my life as a liar, and if I am going to share in the joys of my life in this blog, I am going to be honest about the downs too. I think the best way I could describe the day was every single familiar spirit you could name was pounding on my door, trying to take me away. Right now, I just need to go to sleep and trust that new mercies will wash over me in the morning.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


I am worn out from work, in a daze, and really need a back rub. Too many nights at Omaha can really take it out of you. I have only had one night off in the last 2 weeks. A 4 day serving week at work is pretty much the equivalent of a full time work week, so when you throw in entire weeks at a time, it can run you in to the ground emotionally and physically. ONE more night thank you Jesus. I'm going to sleep.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Dark but (Lovely)?

Today was not my favorite of days. Everything felt just plain overwhelming. Customers bitching at work, etc. etc. etc. But I have this little window of grace right now that is telling me to chose life, to choose to let God take every thought captive. It doesn't come easily to my natural mind, so I am standing in that place of weakness and saying GOD COME! Its easy to see the dark but lovely separately. But its much harder when you feel dark to let God come in and tell you that He calls you lovely anyway, despite what you think you deserve. So heres to being dark, lovely, weak, and an assorted cocktail of other stuff. He will change it all!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sunday Muddy Sunday

Today I:

~Woke up with great rest from my new pillow
~Decided against showering
~Went to church and made it 2/3 through before leaving (which is miraculous)
~Almost got it confused with a television ad for Urban Outfitters.
~Decided that after the month of July off, that I still don't like to stay past worship.
~Played my guitar and sang for the first time in ages.
~Liked it
~Ate brownies
~Talked to my mom
~Dreamed about moving
~Okay, I'm off to work.