Saturday, June 27, 2009


I was opening "Streams in the Desert" to June 28th and I felt like God told me to go to June 17th instead....

"What is the letting down of the wings? People so often say, "How do you get the voice of the Lord?" Here is the secret. They heard the voice when they stood still and let down their wings.
We have seen a bird with fluttering wings through standing still, its wings are fluttering. But here we are told they heard the voice when they stood still and had let down their wings.
Do we not sometimes kneel or sit before the Lord and yet feel conscious of a fluttering of out spirits? Not a real stillness in His presence.
A dear one told me several days ago of a certain thing she prayed about. "But," said she, "I did not wait until the awnser came."
She did not get still enough to hear Him speak, but went away and followed her own thought in the matter. And the result proved disastrous and she had to retrace her steps.
Oh, how much energy is wasted! How much time is lost by not letting down the wings of our spirit and getting very quiet before Him! Oh, the calm, the rest, the peace which come as we wait in His presence until we hear from Him!
Then, ah then, we can go like lightning, and turn not as we go but go straight forward whithersoever the Spirit goes (Exek. 1:1,20)

Friday, June 26, 2009


Today was quite the day. It seemed to start off light and sweet, and at some point in the afternoon veered off down a slippery road that I was not happy to be a passenger on. There was a progression of brokenness that seemed to settle over me like a cloud by around 11 PM and somewhere in the middle of my 1 AM kitchen cleaning/Michael Jackson listening marathon, I cracked wide open in my impending sea of vulnerability. Helplessness. Complete lack. We are not really in control of our lives. Really. And sometimes (most of the time) I'm just so convinced that I am. Newsflash! We are not promised tomorrow. It is man made pride and arrogance to assume that we will have another day. Help us to live for today God...

Monday, June 15, 2009

Transfigure (form)

Matthew 17:2 "And he was transfigured before them. And his face did shine as the sun: and his garments became white as snow."

I thought this verse was interesting, because I found out this morning that transfigure means the same thing as transform, essentially. In Romans 12:2 it says for us to be transformed by the renewing of our minds. THEN we will be able to test and approve the will of God. This must mean our minds being blown.. Not like a change of perspective.. The beautiful thing about this I am currently learning, is that we have a complete lack in our own selves of ever making it happen on our own. We are helpless without Him. When we are weak, He is truly made strong. We can feel like were at the most busy, weak, vulnerable, impossible place in life, and we can come to Him in our weakness and He will be strong. And that is encouraging, because I know that I royally suck at trying to do it my way. So have your way in my life in this today, God. Love you all, have a wonderful day.

Friday, June 12, 2009

God is working something in my among a complete lack of my own ability to control, predict, or know. It is quite uncomfortable, but working a deep dependance to take place. So have at it, God. I would rather have temporary discomfort that will work patience and character to form in the long term.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Goodness (Gracious)

All I can say at the current moment, is WOW... God is big and good and wonderful, and oh so faithful. And has always been these things, it's just that recently I have been entering in to the reality of them once again. The promise of seeing the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living is such a reality to us as sons and daughters. Its not a far off existence. It is offered to us as our inheritance. This is a wonderful thing. There is much going on in my life/heart/head at the moment. All I can say is that it is... well... a beautiful process that is in just that... a process. Do you ever get as sick of hearing that word as I do? Well.... I can honestly say that I am enjoying this process. It is fun. It makes me happy. And thats all I have to say about that.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Ephesians 3

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, 4 just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, 5 having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, 6 to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved.
7 In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace 8 which He made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, 9 having made known to us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself, 10 that in the dispensation of the fullness of the times He might gather together in one all things in Christ, both[a] which are in heaven and which are on earth—in Him. 11 In Him also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestined according to the purpose of Him who works all things according to the counsel of His will, 12 that we who first trusted in Christ should be to the praise of His glory.
13 In Him you also trusted, after you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation; in whom also, having believed, you were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise, 14 who[b] is the guarantee of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, to the praise of His glory.
Prayer for Spiritual Wisdom

15 Therefore I also, after I heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, 16 do not cease to give thanks for you, making mention of you in my prayers: 17 that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, 18 the eyes of your understanding[c] being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, 19 and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power 20 which He worked in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, 21 far above all principality and power and might and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in that which is to come.
22 And He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over all things to the church, 23 which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Good Day

Today..... Oh, today... You were good to me. Many good things happened today. I woke up in my newly renovated "cave" that I am loving more and more by the day, and had eggs and broccoli (lets not forget the butter and cheese). I spent some time reading 1 Peter and Colossians which was great, and then went to work (after another pseudo-nap). We had an unexpected party of 30 walk in and bless us with their presence at work, which I was SO thankful for. And then there were a few other surprises that came today that I was ever so grateful for... but we won't talk about those in my blog... Hence the title "mostly raw and unedited".
I have been greatly surprised and encouraged over the last several weeks. God truly is way more in control than I ever gave Him credit for. There is so much hope and expectancy and PEACE reigning in my heart right now. He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly more than we could ever ask or think according to the power working in us. This is a good thing. He is the ultimate fulfiller of promises both seen and unseen. He is greater than our hearts, and truly knows everything. We don't have to be afraid to trust Him.. He is so worthy of our trust, and is able to keep us as we abide in Him.. If only that abiding thing were easy every day..
It seems as things are quickly shifting. I don't have the words to quite articulate what that means, but when you know, you know... If you know what I mean.. Ha ha. The joy joy joy joy is down in my heart (again) Down in my heart to stay! Well, if you are reading this, know that you are loved greatly tonight. By me, but mostly by Jesus.. Night, night.